Wednesday, April 20, 2016

A psalm

Oh God of all creation
My soul sits at the bottom of despair
I can barely breathe
Though I know you are still there

See me in my pain
Come quick to my aid
Because I know you've loved me
Before earth's foundations were laid

Even in my writhing
And my sorrowful moans
I long to be beside you
And worship before your throne

God you are my God
The holy and and inscrutable king
And even when I feel I've died
Of your majesty I yearn to sing

Holy one of Israel
Whose might and power prevail
Don't ignore me in my darkness
Don't let my spirit fail

I praise you and your loving kindness
That brings me through the night
The deepest darkest shadows
My depression pierced by your light

I praise you for your mercy
That sees me flooded by tears
And lifts me free to safety
You are faithful through the years

Just and holy father
Listen to my righteous cry
Come, I beg you quickly
Let not your son's spirit die

Riding on the clouds
Your messiah will appear
And bring about your kingdom
I know now you are near

Friday, April 15, 2016

Atonement

If the atonement is only one thing, it loses the power and majesty embodied by God. If God is an endless fount that you can drink of and never run dry, or an eternal treasure hunt that the excitement never dies, how can we see the embodiment and death of the Anointed One who bears the Name of the Divine as any less of a mystery. How could we nail him down (excuse the pun) to only saving by one such way?
Is God not the same inscrutable God who said "I am Who I am, I Will be that which I Will be?" Seek and you will find me! I will walk with you in the way you need. I meet you in the flesh!
I AM! I WILL BE! I am here for you!

He is victor and sacrifice
and prisoner and ransom captive freed.
He is plus
and then
not only
also
but look

He is I am, I will be with you!

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

Picking up the slack

      God has been speaking to me through the scripture more than I can ever remember. A while back I was watching a movie that my parents introduced to me at a young age. I would regularly sing the musical numbers in the movie, and would "bless" my kids with songs from the movie (often to their embarrassment). What is this classical movie with catchy tunes you ask? Why, Fiddler on the Roof of course! 
      In the movie the main character laments his life as a poor man by singing a song called "If I Were a Rich Man" (yubby dibby dibby dum). You may have heard this song some where. Anyways, with in this fun and catchy song the singer takes a break from his light hearted banter, and with an earnest voice sings out:

If I were rich, I'd have the time that I lack
To sit in the synagogue and pray.
And maybe have a seat by the Eastern wall.
And I'd discuss the holy books with the learned men, several hours every day.
That would be the sweetest thing of all.


      I used to nearly cry when I would listen to that song, I would say to God: "GIVE ME THAT DESIRE" I want to desire to just sit and learn, to chew over the scriptures to Hagah them, and believe like the Psalmist says of the scripture "They are more precious than gold, than much pure gold; they are sweeter than honey, than honey from the honeycomb."
      I think that God has been giving me a heart to be that same man! I see in scripture things I never saw before, and make connections that excite me. All that being said, I wonder at times what to do with it.
      I was sharing at one time with my pastor (a man who I respect now more than ever) how I was getting excited about seeing new things in scripture. He got excited with me, but then asked a question that stopped me in my tracks. "Thats great Dallas, now what do you do with it?" I was set back on my heels, what do you mean? It's scripture! you tell people, and they... well they...
     Truth without application is a weird thing. We can know truth, but if we don't do anything with it do we really know the truth?


      I've been reading about Samuel lately and his interactions with Saul and David. There's a great list I could put on here about the desirable characteristics of a leader (possibly fitting for election time...) but I won't. Why not? Thats not what God is speaking to me, not really.
      You see, I'm a Father, and I want to teach my children to be good leaders, to be honest, to persevere, and a host of other things.
      Here I am staring into failings of fathers who did not pass on to the next generation good character, did they not take Deuteronomy seriously? It was in that moment that God spoke to me, he spoke of teaching my children good character, but to teach them because it is in the Word. It is in scripture, and so it is important to God! Scripture transcends generations,  and is the reason to teach my kids, because it is important to God!